people are strange: part v

-deepest hurt in my life:

having my ignorance meter blaring while I'm being accused of arrogance.

-most profound statement I've ever read:

arthur ashe was asked what it was like to have been diagnosed with aids, he said: "it's nothing compared to being black."

-most beautiful thing I've ever seen:

dawn, from absolute darkness, at my first visit to the grand canyon.

-ugliest thing I've ever seen:

there's a woman in greensboro with feet so ugly, her child screeches norman bates music when she takes her shoes off.

-most scared moment(s):

tie: feeling the weight of my 18 wheeler trying to push me off the first mountain top I descended from; having pyronig's clammy, murderous hands clamp over my face to kill me. (that was tough to type!)

-biggest disappointment this year:

the truth not setting me free.

-least recognized talent:

not just seeing latent evil but watching others not see it.

-my biggest fault:

believing I'm anything more than the space I occupy and the things I do.

-biggest waste of time:

waiting for my family to apologize for treating me like I got what I deserved.

-most suppressed impulse:

the times that I don't tell people why they say and do what they say and do. they operate just beneath the shallowness of others and then use "what" instead of "why" to explain their motives.

-what:

"I just hate that happened to you!"

-why: schadenfreude

-funniest thing I ever saw:

I was snapping my fingers in a restaurant, trying to remember something during a conversation. the waiter walked up.

-saddest thing I ever saw:

knowing that as a people and as a nation, the u.s. of a. is fucked.

-most despairing thought:

we're being socially engineered to apathy.

-worst feeling of dread:

being asked to say something.

-greatest transparent moment:

I walked by a "just can't poot, marry a doctor in two weeks" type in the bridal department at dillards. I was in jeans and a t-shirt. during her royal treatment by a sales-person, I walked right past and near. without moving her head, she closed her eyes until I was out of sight...

-how I responded:

I didn't.

-how I should have responded:

"hey, ya'll know anywhar I can git a cole beer?"

to be continued...